A Chosen Generation

“The Lord repay Your work, and a full reward be given to you by the Lord God of Israel, under whose wings you have come for refuge.” Ruth 2:12 The Lord provides a reward through every hardship we face. Not always the reward we want, but the one we need. Knowing Him more has been more than a reward for me, but a renewed/pure heart. I rest in knowing that He is with me always. I want to be kind hearted like Ruth. I want to put others needs before my own and step into the unknown. My God is sovereign and He will guide my steps when I put my life into His hands. I want to be obedient and go when God says go and speak when God says speak. I must submit to my authority here with out grumbling or complaining in my heart. I only get this season once and I want to take advantage of this time I have and fully seek the Lord and all that He has for me. I pray to be a woman of strong faith and pray the impossible prayers because I serve a God who provides the answers. My heart isn’t i

“But when the children of Israel cried out to the Lord, the Lord raised up a deliverer for them..” Judges 3:15 I fail and fall so many times a day. My flesh wants the opposite of what God wants for me at times and I let it win, but when I cry out  to the Lord He always saves me. No matter what time of day it is or how far I have gone off. He always meets me right where I am at. His love for me is endless and there is nothing I could do that would change His love for me. And I want to be like that. I want to be able to forgive like God does. I want to love unconditionally. I don’t want to hold bitterness or anger in my heart. I want to be full of love and joy and see others the way God sees them. I don’t want to be a consumer, but a giver. The only way I will be able to grow is if I become more like Christ. There is always something new to learn about the Lord. Through His word I learn, but walking in His word is how I grow. I don’t want His word to just stay in my brain,

“but you shall hold fast to the Lord your God, as you have done to this day. For the Lord has driven out from before you great and strong nations; but as for you, no one has been able to stand against you to this day.” -Joshua 23:8-9 Coming back to Guatemala I knew it was going to be new and different, but I didn’t think the spiritual warfare would be as strong if not stronger than it was the first couple weeks of me being here during training. Wars that I have already fought through and battle the Lord has already won for me, but still having that struggle of clinging fully to Him. God has driven me out of so much anxieties, fears and temptations in my life and at this point those are the things that the enemy is trying to drive back into my life the most. I know that these next 6 months are going to be challenging, but behind each inconvenience is a hidden blessing, and that is how I must look at these hard times where I feel physically and spiritually exhausted. I must