A Chosen Generation

“The inner sanctuary was twenty cubits long, twenty cubits wide, and twenty cubits high. He overlaid it with pure gold, and overlaid the alter of cedar.” 1 Kings 6:20 The Lord cares about every detail. Big or small. So many times I have just skimmed over passages like these where it talks about measurements or the variety of things made and I asked God why are these passages here and why are they important. I found that my life can look like this, but while reading I truly recognized Solomon’s dedication to please the Lord. I go through days like I am promised tomorrow sometimes just getting things done and moving on to the next. Treating things with more heart than others. God has my days all planned out and some of those days look like being in the kitchen all day or being at kids camps or fellowshipping with my team, and all of these things need to be acted on with the right heart. A willing heart aligned with His. Some days it gets exhausting and some days I just want

“And God gave Solomon wisdom and understanding beyond measure, and breadth of mind like the sand on the seashore.”  1 Kings 4:29 So many times I catch myself asking God for the dumbest of things. Things that only seem temporary or things depending on how I am feeling that day. Solomon was king and his prayer was to gain wisdom. He wasn’t asking God for riches or honor or a long life, but wisdom. God found favor in that knowing that Solomon’s desire was to please the Lord. My prayer life needs to have more faith involved. God knows what I need and He knows what I want, but my prayers need to be for things that are going to grow me and stretch me. This chapter convicted me because I have been keeping God in a box and doubting that He can do the big things that I pray for in my own life and for the lives of others. He is wanting to do exceeding and abundantly more than I can even think of, but I am holding onto the lies of “He won’t”. HE CAN AND HE WILL. He has already done s

“Let us search out and examine our ways, And turn back to the Lord; Let us lift our hearts and hands to God in Heaven. We have transgressed and rebelled; You have not pardoned.”  Lamentations 3:40-42 It’s so easy to lose sight on our own hearts when we are too busy looking at everyone else’s. So easy to judge people’s hearts by their actions, but where’s my heart in that? I never deserved the right to do that nor will I ever. So many times when I do it shows how wicked my own heart is. Heart checks need to be an everyday thing. Letting God search my heart and revealing to me how dirty it is can be rough, but it can also be a beautiful thing. It is beautiful because He doesn’t want me to stay there. He knows my heart and He knows my desire is to love and honor Him so when He does reveal the wickedness in my heart I know that He is listening. I’ve turned my back on the life I lived when I was home and God has taken away those temptations when He brought me here. It’s only hu

“So the Lord preserved David wherever he went” 2 Samuel 8:6 I don’t know why You have fought my battles for so long. I am so undeserving, I don’t know why you persevere me. I know that you love me, but my thoughts have been so wicked and my tongue has been deceiving. Why do you preserve me? I am living life like it’s just another day expecting that you will just give me another one. I wanted to feel something again, and you came to my rescue once again. You are a Father who never shys away from me. You wait patiently for me to return to you and I am sorry that it always takes me so long. Make me a clean heart again. I give you all that I am. No one loves like you do, but I pray that you give me a heart to love those around me like the way you love them. This is my race and I want to run it the best I can. I am tired of running against others, that is not what you have called me to do. Thank you for loving me and the team you have put me on, and going before us as we take on t