A Chosen Generation

“For I have come down from heaven, not to do my own will but the will of him who sent me.” John 6:38 This is my last full week of field time and my heart is breaking. It feels like yesterday I was landing here for the first time not knowing the Lord was about to flip my life what felt upside down. Guatemala has been both a wilderness and a refuge in the past 9 months. The Lord knew I would find Him here and He knew that I needed Guatemala more than Guatemala needed me. This year has been the best year of my life and it all started with a yes to the Lord. A yes to allow Him to work through me and break me of myself. I have never been more free in my entire life. I am reminded of the work that Jesus did for me on the cross and how his blood shed for my sins to set me free and gave me the life I have today. I no longer live for myself, but for Him who has brought me out of the darkest of places and into the light. He has given me a new life with a new love and hope in Him. I d

“Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; It does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 Communal living can be tough and tiring. Sharing a house with 18 people can even get overwhelming at times, but it has been so good. I have never been as close with the 18 people that I have only known for around 9 months. By this time we all know each others likes and dislikes and we defiantly know what buttons not to push. These verses are a good reminder for the home. Ministry starts in the home and if we can’t abide to what love says here our home will fall apart. Seeking the Lord daily is a must and treating each other with love is what has got us through these last 9 months. We about a week and a half left it is easier to distant myself from the people

“So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”                                          John 8:36   My time in Guatemala has consisted of one word: freedom. A freedom I have never felt before. Knowing that there was a God in heaven that loved me, but for the first time in my life experiencing that love in my heart and everyday life. Coming into ignite I had so many secret sins that I was enslaved to that I didn't realize. God broke into my heart and my life has never been the same. Stripping everything I had from me and starting over with a fresh desire for Him alone. It hurt, but it was what I needed. Humbling, equipping, and steadying my heart to do His will. Finally seeing Him as my strength, my healer, my redeemer and my Father. I am free indeed. And as I walk in this freedom I will give everything I have to Him. Loving Him with all my heart and surrendering all that I am for the rest of my life. 

“Strive to enter through the narrow door. For many, I tell you, will seek to enter and will not be able.” Luke 13:24 Being so close to the end of field time is a weird feeling, and it hurts, but knowing that God will be walking me step by step through it. Knowing that my future is in His hands I must trust that He knows what He is doing and looking back on the past 8 months, He surely has. He has boughten me out of my comfort zone and has brought me to my ultimate healing place. He has provided me a home to not only live but to grow in a deeper relationship with Him and those around me. This time away has been the biggest blessing and has forever changed my life. As I return back home I want to continue walking through the narrow door. I don't want to go home and get comfortable again. Being in ignite wasn't a pause on my life back home but a play to take what I've learned this year back home and be a witness to what the Lord has done in my life. Never settling